CELIBACY
Castrating my emotions by
Eliminating my sexual encounters because
Licking leads them to loving and I am
Incapable of loving them back so I
Bind my desires in activity and
Allow access only to my shallowest parts because
Constant flirtations with mediocrity leave me
Yearning for something that will touch my soul
... So I Wait ...
Fire
SHE ABANDONED ME
(Love's Down Side Challenge)
I loved her
with everything in me
I loved her
I met her and I knew
that she would forever change my life
and she did
with the sweetest words
she rewrote my love realities
feeding me gentle kisses
and opening my soul
with her musings of we
she convinced me to
let down my guard
trust her like no other
she freed me from the bonds of
fear
hesitancy
and uncertainty
then that bitch ...
turned on me
even as she sang sweet songs to me
she was betraying our reality
with her singular pursuits
she destroyed my happiness
left me confused and unbalanced
all because she could no longer see
the viability of we
and I hate her
with every fiber of my soul
I hate her
the way she said my name
like no other
the way she fed me lies
like they were sweet pecan pies
the way she wrapped my heart
around her every single finger
only to leave me laying on the floor
heart broken
spirit bruised
soul in pieces
because she was really only a facsimile
of the love she pretended to offer me
and I hate her
with every fiber in my soul
I hate her
the way she used my weakness
to undermine me
used my secret desires
to unwind me
the way she used love
to seduce me into her web
only to abandon me
to empty memories tied to
soul searching uncertainties
as I struggle to create a new reality
outside of the one love seduced me into
and that bitch shattered so selfishly
and I hate her
with every fiber in my soul
I hate her
lovingly
Fire
08.19.08
