SHE ABANDONED ME (Love's Down Side Challenge)

SHE ABANDONED ME
(Love's Down Side Challenge)

I loved her
with everything in me
I loved her

I met her and I knew
that she would forever change my life
and she did

with the sweetest words
she rewrote my love realities
feeding me gentle kisses
and opening my soul
with her musings of we

she convinced me to
let down my guard
trust her like no other
she freed me from the bonds of
fear
hesitancy
and uncertainty

then that bitch ...
turned on me
even as she sang sweet songs to me
she was betraying our reality
with her singular pursuits
she destroyed my happiness
left me confused and unbalanced

all because she could no longer see
the viability of we

and I hate her
with every fiber of my soul
I hate her

the way she said my name
like no other
the way she fed me lies
like they were sweet pecan pies
the way she wrapped my heart
around her every single finger

only to leave me laying on the floor
heart broken
spirit bruised
soul in pieces
because she was really only a facsimile
of the love she pretended to offer me

and I hate her
with every fiber in my soul
I hate her

the way she used my weakness
to undermine me
used my secret desires
to unwind me
the way she used love
to seduce me into her web

only to abandon me
to empty memories tied to
soul searching uncertainties
as I struggle to create a new reality
outside of the one love seduced me into
and that bitch shattered so selfishly

and I hate her
with every fiber in my soul
I hate her

lovingly

Fire
08.19.08