GRACEFUL SUBMISSION

GRACEFUL SUBMISSION

gracefully and humbly I tumbled into...
the reality of you and I and the evolution of we
never believing it was possible to be loved
in the same unconditional manner in which I gave it
I refused to acquiesce my emotional safety
to anyone that wasn't my spiritual equal

then along came you
your cognizance and spiritual awareness left me
speechless and completely in awe

you viewed me as your soul mate long before I
realized you were aware of me
gifted with the ability to see my spirit
you viewed me as the paradigm for spiritual perfection
and all who came before me were nugatory in comparison

I was overwhelmed by your desire for me

so used to being relegated to an ancillary level
... I was left speechless in the face of your declaration
that I was God created to be your Queen

I was unprepared for the level of faith you had in me

reading my words ... viewing them as a gift to be used
for His good ... you desired to assist me in ascending
to the level you were certain I was meant to attain
so I reveled in the evolution of we
... rested in your unconditional love for me

I took your hand, placed my trust in you ... and we stood

Together we traveled the bridge to nowhere
only this time ... there was a destination at the end
a place full of blue skies and beautiful clouds
a place for us to rest and be and grow and love

realization finally dawned on me as we embarked on this journey

it was never a bridge to nowhere
... I was simply unable to see it's reality
so mired was I in the misery of imagined failures
... I couldn't see the true worth of the journey
awaiting me at the end ... so I thank you ... my forever

for the clarification of you and I
and the reality of ... We

Lyrehc
(Fire)
08.24.06

DEFINITION OF WE

DEFINITION OF WE

I can tell you who I am
and I am sure I know who you are
so let me define ... the essence of we

I breathe in, you breathe out
we breathe in unison
I move left, you move right
we move forward
I dream and forget, you dream and remember
we dream and comprehend
black and white with sepia tones
but technicolor are we
flying above the crowds of misery
choosing to create our own reality
where you and I don't exist
only we

barely remembered memories
of the time when you and I existed
outside of we and in total misery
incomprehensible to travel back
forward and united the only option of we
so I come to you with a desire to
clarify
dignify
magnify
the reality that was once separate
but is now simply defined by the essence
of we

LYREHC
(Fire)
08.14.06

BOUND

BOUND

I am wrapped in chains
Bound
To something I can’t see or hear
I am stuck in this place
Glued to this spot
And the reason for that escapes me
So I stand here, in this spot
Bound
And unable to see my way free
Tied to the illusions
Of this illusory place
And the limitations I can’t quite see
Freedom has to be attainable
And yet I have no idea how to be
Free in my movements in my actions
Free to think myself out of this place
Bound
And desperate to be free
As the chains tighten around me
Constricting with every twist and turn
Refusing to let me go
And my mind is succumbing as well
To the reality of being trapped
Bound
By unseen restrictions and expectations
Bound
To this Never place, the Always place
Of limitations and boundaries
Bound
By those who claimed to know what was best for me
Long before they ever saw me
Bound
Because they want something better for me
Want me to be free to think and be whatever I want
But that can never be achieved
Because in their desperation to keep me safe
With their good intentions and far sightedness
They only achieved one thing
Me … restrained, restricted, repressed
In the name of my freedom they have me
Bound

Lyrehc
(Fire)
10.10.06

ADORATION

ADORATION

I adore you
yes ... that's what I said
and yes ... I know what it means
to worship or honor as divine
to regard with loving admiration and devotion
so yes baby ... I repeat
I adore you

you stand before me
choosing me, needing me, wanting me
and I feel anointed by your love for me

time formerly viewed as wasted
now feels perfectly necessary to facilitate
my evolution into the woman you would deem
worthy of your love and affection

I was once held captive
under the tyranny of unhappy disillusion
but you bartered for my freedom
by promising my heart that this time
would be the right time

you persuaded me to deviate
from my commitment to remain in exile
devoid of love and happiness .. but also pain

with gentle urgings you persuaded me
to open the door and let you in

touching me with soul kisses
you clarified my reality and imbued me
with a desire to be your vision of me ... of we

looking at me
as if I am the most revered woman of all
desiring me
as if my beauty were truly incomparable to any other
holding me
in the highest esteem I've ever experienced
... you woo me

sweetly, softly, seductively
you pull out of me emotions I didn't know existed
I stand before you
raining emotive declarations of my love upon you
so that you can see what I feel

me needing you to join with me
on a cellular level
so that words will cease to be necessary
wanting to clarify any misconceptions you may have
as to the depth of my commitment to us
my dedication to we

so I am here ... before you
the physical manifestation of my inner self
my love for you laid out bare and naked
and I whisper to you
lovingly, passionately and sincerely

I Adore You

Lyrehc
(Fire)
08.14.06

DICHOTOMY

DICHOTOMY

I am stronger than steel
and as fragile as hand spun glass
I am outspoken and loud
while quietly keeping my words inside
I refuse to be mistreated
as I soothe my emotional bruises
I am a survivor of life
even as I pick up my victim mantra
I scream so that I can be
unseen and ignored
I run forward so that I can
go back to where I first started
I climb higher and higher
so that I can stay on the bottom
I am fearless in the face of death
even as I beg life to never leave me
I surround myself with people
so that I can be completely alone

I am dichotomies existing
a mix of contradictions
releasing my hold on the opposites
so that reality can take hold
with no fear of the other side
the side that would cancel it out
choosing to be one with logic
and apart from the opposing sides
of my dichotomy ridden life

FIRE
06.27.06

WOUNDED

WOUNDED

I am tired
battered and worn
by the repeated attempts
to connect
with a like mind
a kindred spirit if you will

solitary by nature
I still venture out from time to time
in the hopes that I might find
a place my heart can rest
and my spirit can be renewed
but that place is hidden from me

could it be that I am
unworthy?
undeserving?
unprepared?
I can't continue to reach out my hand
only to find myself alone
left to pick up the pieces of myself
I allowed to be exposed

the brief interludes of happiness
the glimpses of peace
aren't worth what each encounter
takes from me
my heart looks like a map
and in some ways it is just that
the map of my heartache
of my trials and tribulations

I am wounded
like a soldier caught in the crossfires
I am ducking and dodging
the mortar shells of pain
trying to find that shelter I hear so much of
the one where love is held
and nurtured and is allowed to grow
into the beautiful reality
I seek ... desperately
but it remains elusive
... unavailable to me

so I bandage the wounds
so that the damage is virtually
undetectable
trying to heal the scars
and I wait, hope nearly gone,
for she to come to me
so that my new reality can be born
from the remains of destruction
and disappointment
and dimming hope

FIRE
07.10.06