EVER CHANGING

EVER CHANGING

I see her over there ...
trying to be the person
others want her to be
but the change in her is
superficial at best
she isn't a better person
with a better outlook on life
she is the same person
with a new mask on her face
covering the ugliness inside
but no one sees it but me

she says this new love
is the best love
and that everything she's done
has been for the betterment of them
and yet, I don't believe it
see, change made for another
can only be temporary
and as fleeting as that love will surely be
so will these new changes she's making

she's an opportunist
and right now, opportunity is knocking
and begging her to pretend to be someone else
but she doesn't see it
I mean, I've tried to broach the topic
but she simply isn't hearing me
she's even called me jealous
so I let it be
but the end,
and i see it approaching,
will be an interesting one

And do you know
she's even joined church
I mean, I have no issue with religion
I think it's a personal matter but
she's a damn atheist
or at least she was until this latest incarnation
required her to love and embrace God
the hell and damnation from this pretend game
I don't even want to see
but like the end, I see it coming

so I've moved myself out of the way
taken a seat on the sidelines of her life
even as a part of me
the neverending optimistic part
hopes I am truly mistaken and that she
is exactly who she says she is
but hell
I'm a realist too
and reality states that what smells wrong
and looks wrong and sounds wrong
usually is

...but still

Fire
01/08/08