CHANGELING

CHANGELING

I used to be
someone else
not physically but
spiritually

I used to prey on others
use their weaknesses
to get what I wanted
until one day ...
things changed

one day I bit an apple
with a worm that turned
and my transformation
was borne

I can't tell you why
that apple
on THAT day
changed my life
all I can tell you, is that it did

Now I spend my days
trying to make amends
if not towards the ones I've hurt
then by helping someone else

paying back to anyone
what I would have done to everyone
had I not changed
had God not changed me

but I wonder if
when I meet Him
He will see the sincerity in my heart
even though I know I will have to pay
for the sins I committed

and I will gladly pay the price
because I see clearly what a predator I was
but there is a trace of fear
fear born from knowing how badly
I treated others, mistreated them

but I move forward
doing what I can to make amends
in this life
before I am held accountable for my wrongs

and I hope that in the end
my life will show that
once I saw the error of my ways
I did enough good to make peace
with the many wrongs I did to others

Fire
01.08.08