YOU

I don't understand
how I ended up here
a broken shell
of the woman I used to be
once I was so confident
and so ... at peace
but now, there is nothing
but questions and doubt

YOU

you did this to me
waltzing into my reality
rewriting my story
to include you and your
deceptive ways
using beautiful words
tied to devious intentions
to seduce me from my place
of calm and peace
into your drama filled existence

YOU

the reason I hold myself at night
afraid to let anyone else near me
for fear they are as deceptive as

YOU

malicious and vindictive in your
plans to undermine my calm
and infiltrate my campgrounds
of peace and serenity
only to leave me broken, shattered
and bereft of hope and light

YOU

elicit from me plaintive cries for you to
speak to me
walk with me
stay beside me
and for what ... you are truly unworthy
of the worst of me and I allowed you
to undermine the best of what I am
but that is no more

YOU

I walked away from you ... finally
and I am slowly healing the inner me
so that one day, my reality will truly be
of my own creation
and you will be nothing more
than the nightmare
I arose from and dispelled

FIRE
06.30.06