TUMMYFLIES

I can't explain it
when I see your name
I get tummyflies
when I read your poems
I get lightheaded
my heart starts pounding
and my tummyflies
become flutterbies
and I read you

obsessively ... desperately

wishing that I'd see something
that would let me know
that you are thinking of me
wishing I could be
the object of your affection
even if it's only .. in the poetic sense
at this point anything would be better
than nothing at all

damn ... I sound desperate
but this is what you do to me
you take me outside of myself
outside of what I am used to

you got me speaking a new language
one I had to make up just for you
tummyflies and flutterbies
to describe that feeling in my tummy
lustivious to describe
well I think you know
and splendiferous to describe
how amazing you are to me

damn baby I just need you to
see me
feel me
speak me
but more than that baby
I wanna know you
in the most basic ways
I want to rest in your mind
and see where the very first thought
originates
I want to see the thoughts take shape
and become words
I want to ride the words to your lips
so I can slide out on your tongue

see what you do to me
you take me to new heights of
imaginings
got me trying to find new ways
to express these things only you
make me feel

*sigh*

damn ... but how will you know?
because I swear you don't see me
I'm sure I haven't even registered
beyond 'fellow poet'
or 'cute stranger'
but still ... I can't stop dreaming you
and wishing you would just
notice me

Fire
07.28.06