LIMBO

Desperately seeking answers
to questions I am too afraid to ask
wondering if you are even worth
the suppression of self
loving you demands
Seized with the realization that
walking away from you is my only alternative
in this battle for possession of me
choosing to divorce myself from your
glittering dysfunctionality
even as I pray I can rebound from this
the latest implosion of self that I have somehow
solicited in my desperate desire to be a part
of something so much bigger than I think I am
so I sit here quietly asking questions
and silently wishing for answers
to something only I can resolve or understand
wishing and hoping that one day
I am able to snatch back the parts of me
that you seized upon your arrival
and desperate for relief from this state of limbo
loving you has cast me into

FIRE
06.28.06