I COULDN'T BREATHE

I COULDN'T BREATHE

I woke up this morning
and i couldn't breathe

my mind was overcome with thoughts
of saying goodbye to you
unsure how the end got here but certain
things will never be the same
and I couldn't seem to focus on
anything

I woke up this morning
and I couldn't breathe

because somewhere along the way
you became more than my love
you became my life ... my reason
my existence directly tied to you
and your presence in my life
but now, you are forever
gone

I woke up this morning
and I couldn't breathe

going through the motions of life
but no longer living it
I am a shadow of what I used to be
a hollow reminder of what we could have been
and I take a step towards nothing
because you are no longer at the other end of my
reality

I woke up this morning
and I couldn't breathe

I am dead on the inside
no longer capable of seeing the colors of happiness
or hearing the sounds of living
incapable of smelling the sweetness life used to offer
because my senses were heightened by you
my love, my life, my one ... and you are forever gone
see ... last night we talked and we cried and we said
goodbye

yesterday we stopped pretending that WE
was still a viable option and accepted that you and I
was all that was left
so we parted, separated, ended
and I found myself all alone in my bed
weeping for unrealized dreams and unreached potential
and I told myself that I would be fine ...
that I would survive
but this morning I found out
that I was lying to myself

see, when I woke up this morning
I couldn't breathe
because my reason for living
was gone from me

Fire
10.16.06