DIFFERENT

I could never tell you how often
I've wished things could have been different
how many times I've retraced our steps
and wished I could go back to the beginning
how I wish we could redo it all ... do it better
make different choices so we could have
a different result
I loved you ... thought you were my one
but things spiraled out of control so fast
even now, with ugly memories
and harsh words in my head ... I wonder
could we have?
should we have?
would we have?
then I shake my head ... clear the thoughts
because do overs don't exist in my world
I learned long before you ... that when it ends
leave it that way ... it's for the best most times
no chance of ugly memories jumping up
to solicit you to exact some measure of revenge
on imagined slights and wounded pride
so I sit here and I remember how we were
and imagine how we could have been
if things could only have been ... different

Fire
07.19.06